May 2015Mother's Day begins officially in 22 minutes. Why am I up at the midnight hour posting a blog?!? This Mother's Day is weighing heavily on my mind.
My mom has been gone for many years now, passing at the age of 54, from Leukemia. I, at 50, have been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease. And, the good news is that my oldest son will be having my first grandchild in November. Mothers, mom, mommy...Grandma, gram, .....what amazing role models I have had...will I be???
Mother's Day has over the last few years has been somewhat of a mixed ball of emotions.. I miss my own mother today, as much as the day we lost her. But my own role as a mother, has been one of my greatest achievements. And now, I will be stepping into a new set of shoes...shoes that I hope to fit into...and do some justice.
I know without a doubt, that my role as mother felt very much like it was something that I was just meant to be....proof is in the pudding. I couldn't be more proud of my two sons, the men they have become, and I forever revisit my memories of my beautiful life with them as infants, toddlers, children, and .yes...even as teenagers!!
My mom was my mother first and foremost, and secondly, my best friend. I have tried my best to emulate that role for my sons. Mother first....to protect, direct, guide, provide, and assist. Best friend next....to listen, discuss, challenge, enjoy and just embrace.. Hopefully in that manner, in that order, I have gained respect, and a trustt, that I had with my own mom.
I remember watching my mother develop into her role as a grandmother. With the birth of both my sons, she pushed me to take the reins of disciplinarian, while I watched her ride freestyle. Love and memories were the goal of every moment spent with her grandchildren She made this new role look like pure fun, rich involvement, and an abundant amount of love that just resonated.
As I spent the last few days with my mom, she expressed how proud she was of the mother that I had become. I had never felt so honoured......and now, I know she will be coaxing me into upping the ante as I begin my journey through grandparent-hood.
My worry is in being healthy and active enough, to be great. In my mind there could be the limitations of my Parkinson's. But if life as, grandma, is even 1/8th as incredible as that of, mom,....well....with a few adaptations, wee changes tweeked here and there, PD will not get in my way. Grandma's have superpowers! And I am determined to use every last one!
Happy Mother's Day!
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